• Poetry: “Disown” by saartha

    And it broke my heart but I
    killed every trembling thing. The yearning
    spaces subsided, they were reddened, they
    were convinced to stillness.

    And it broke my heart but God
    became God-in-exile, became
    yearning spaces. I buried my demons
    with a knife, and left them to it. Exile
    was the new love, it was a barren land,
    it took no prisoners.

    And it broke my heart but the pieces
    hardened, they were as clockworks,
    they counted down the hours. I was
    waiting, my body was a sharp plane,
    a border, I was waiting, everything

    had already happened, I had killed it,
    it drifted through the motionless diaspora,
    the hours turned on me and they had teeth.

    – by saartha